Feeling miserable while being pregnant

So, remember when I said telling my dad was a whole different story. It truly was… My momma did it for me pretty much. I thought that he would have been madder but he took it pretty well. My mom told him over the phone while she was at work and I was standing next to her. So that took most of the brunt away from me. Thanks mom I will never ever forget you doing that for me.

The first 3 to 4 months of my pregnancy were miserable. I hated not feeling well at all. I remember that there was one time my mom had to pull off the side of the road so that I could throw up my cereal I just ate. It was not a pretty picture for all involved. I have some early pregnancy pictures that I will share eventually. 

I remember that I had to have my system restarted essentially 2 or 3 times because, I became so dehydrated and I was not gaining weight in fact I was losing weight not gaining. I remember my mom uttering these words to me..I had to start eating and not throwing up if I wanted to go on Vacation with my Auntie Julie. Which we were going to Escanaba. This is where my great auntie’s live and where I spent many of summers with my gram, great gram and auntie. After my trip was threatened i started eating and holding down the things I was eating and that was it for the sickness.

The rest of the pregnancy was rather smooth. I had my mom who took me to appointments and a family friend Rick. Some times I would go by myself. At the time I found out I was pregnant I worked full-time as  a truck packer at Banta Book Group. That was a fun job for the most part. However, I wanted to cut down to part-time because of my illness. Since I couldn’t do that I ended up quitting. Stupid move on my part at the time but oh well you live and you learn. There was one time that I went out to eat with Rick to Burger King. I know bad food…but, at that time I didn’t do what I do now. I remember being there sitting with him and some higher up from the Banta Book Group came in and were just staring at us probably thinking he was the dad. We had a good laugh about that. Oh and the older ladies what a hoot. 

I don’t remember what job I got after I was pregnant. I think that I ended up getting a lot of help from my mom and dad. With the things that I needed for my babies, myself and just daily living.

So we are coming upon my delivery of twins…Oh my what an experience that was but, I am going to hold off telling you anymore for know. Gotta keep the suspense going a little. 



Turning 21 and what happened after

Barley got to enjoy being 21 going out with friends and what not. After all I celebrated my 21 with my mom and good friend Jamie Jack! At Sabre Lanes…. I did have some good drinks though that night and good dinner. We went to Red Robin. Who doesn’t love some clucks and fries!! 

Fast forward a month maybe and I was dating this guy Ryan. Ryan and I did more than just date we created a little human. Which I confirmed with a home pregnancy test. Mind you I still have to tell my mom about this tiny human growing inside of me. Oh, and I had an addiction to nicotine. Which I knew was not good for my baby. 

I told my mom that I was pregnant. That was a lot easier but I was scared. I guess I didn’t want her to think any less of me because I did my life out of order. At this point I was probably about a month along. I was feeling like crap. I was having stomach pains and I told my mom and asked her what I should do and she told me to go to the ER. So, I had the then boyfriend drop me off. (It was the last day we dated because things ended with him. He decided to go back to his ex. Which in hind site I was totally good with.) I am in the ER and telling them that I am pregnant and have stomach pains. I thought that I was having a miscarriage I did not know the difference. They did a bunch of different tests on me. Stomach ultra sounds and a vaginal ultra sound (very uncomfortable). So after spending 8 hours in the emergency room that day.

The doctor state that there was nothing wrong with me and that the ultra sound technician had heard 2 healthy strong heart beats. In my head I was like what the hell did he just say. So, at this point I was just looking at him and asked him to repeat what he had just said. He then told me that I was not having only 1 baby but twins.  At which point I was just in complete shock. I then called my mom as she was still at work and said I was done with the ER and proceeded to tell her that I was expecting twins.

She picked me up and we went home and began planning for twins babies/grand babies. Mind you at this time I still had to tell my dad…which is a story for another day. So there is how my mom and I found out together that I was having twins. This is when I knew I would be a single mom for a while and you know what I was okay with that. I didn’t need anyone but my family.


A reason why…

After taking a poll on Facebook to see if people would be interested in the things I had to say and write about I decided what the hell. I mind you I am human and I will make mistakes from time to time but don’t we all. I want to share with my readers what it was like for me to become a parent at a young age, losing the most important person in my life, moving to a different state, getting married, having a less then stellar relationship with my dad, having another baby, educational journey, healthier life style, and personal change and growth through all of these life events.

I am new to this so bare with me because I am not really sure where I want to start. I suppose I will pick a topic a day to write about and go from there. There is a place I believe after each post to make comments and ask questions. Please do not hesitate at all. If I can answer I will if I don’t feel that I should share then I simply will not.